hurm.. i am speechless. you know what? before i am 18, i've set in my mind that i won't and can't fall in love with any guys before i reach 20 years old.. even have a feeling. that's why, eventhough around me are all guys, i should not to think about them but need only to focus in my study. serabut tahu tak ! i need all my girl friends. omg, serious kusut pale otak aku.. i start to be the courage girl. takut dgn all the guys. actually, someone has stole my heart. bukan aku suka2 nak syg dia okay.. aku tak buat apa2.. tapi dia yg menggerakkan hati aku. i can't told who is he in this entry. it is so secret.. only 2 people know about this. cikgu Mai and Kak Bie..tapi ckgu mai and kak bie tak kenal org tu sape. org lain tak pernah tahu. or even the guy that i like most. selama ni, memang aku tak jangka yg aku boleh ter'sayang' dia. Bukan syg saje2 tapi aku rasa sygkan dia untuk dunia and akhirat. but let it be my special secret. bila aku try nak forget about him, aku tak boleh. aku tak boleh lari dari dia. cuz almost every day aku nmpak dia. if tak nmpak pun, automatic aku nak carik dia. ckup skadar aku pndang dia and look his smile :) but that guy tak tahu kut bout my feeling ni. maybe dia boleh rasa tapi dia tak confirm dgn perasaan aku yg sebenar terhadap dia. and i will NOT to tell him bout this. NEVER EVER ! cuz i know it is impossible. tahu kenapa impossible?? aha! adalah.. hahaha.. bak kata org, bagai langit dgn bumi. jauh beza tahu tak. but i don't care bout that. asal aku tahu dia okay every day :) and i will pray for him for ever after. tapi, yg sedihnya... after dia tkar class , he is not like before. yah, sometimes he is friendly with my classmate but not me.. bila aku smile kat dia, dia tnduk. adoi. senang crita dia menyombong dgn aku. dah banyak kali, aku senyum kat dia. lebar lagi.. lama plak tuh. dia pun memang nampak aku tgah senyum kat dia. tapi... dia tak senyum. tak kesah lah tapi rasa pelik plak.. malah, dia pndang tmpat lain. sdgkan memang straight dia berdiri depan aku. where is his smiling ?? tah lah.. i missed the past already.. with him in my class. and with his good manner and friendly. he always help me every moment that i need. ya, he do help everyone. mula2 memang aku tak caye apa yg aku rasa. and always nak abaikan pasal ni.. but, bila aku pjam mata je, tiba2 teringat kat dia. bila aku bosan or alone, teringat his sweet moment. haha. senang citer memang tak dpt nak lari dari lupakan dia lah. this is my first time to have feel like this okay. that's why aku coretkan pasal dia dlm nih. i won't forget him.. and i already told him about that before :) and he answer, "please don't forget me:)" smbil senyum tuh.. haha :p so far, tu je kot yg aku nak story pasal dia. if ada lagi pape crita pasal dia, i'll write it down in new entry soon.. may Allah bless him..
wassalam..
