Monday, July 25, 2011

passed ELP :)

"good nite little angel.." message that i received last night :) today. just trying to be strong.. and egois. but he's totally different. he's too friendly. make me flirting again. macam dulu. but i already told myself. to not overboard. so, i just stay cool :p poyo je kan. hm.. betul lah.. just be cool.. slowly.. then, i wonder how's he becomes totally happy today. siap puji saya kurus lagi. haha. mengarut. when afternoon, master parade time -___-" malasnya kan.. then, capten syahidan called one by one the trainees who passed their ELP examination. 1st name, anwarudin.. 2nd name, "Nur Afizzy bin Masjidi".. terus terdiam.. and tgn makin kuat pulak tepuk :') see... my tears slowly comes out.. sebak.. terharu.. terlampau happy sangat tengok dia dekat depan tu.. itu dia.. masa depan dia makin dekat dgn dia. semuanya atas usaha dia sendiri. congrats kamu :'') saya mendoakan kejayaan kamu.. tiba2 rasa sebak.. because i do sincere with him.. maybe it's not our time.. it's okay. slowly we moving on.. together.. but, my essay (module 7) failed. erm.. but i dont know why i'm not too frusted like before. smpai makan pun takde selere dulu. bila difikirkan balik.. his award, make me sooo happy.. i'm happy when he's happy :') saya boleh cuba lagi kan.. tah niah kamu.. jaga diri baik2.. i have to kan??

Saturday, July 23, 2011

what should i do now?

you.. for every single words typed here, please do not misunderstand. not my intention to tell the world bout every things. they didnt understand what i meant here. now, you deserve have a better life than before. you deserve have a good partner than me. i wouldn't force you into anything anymore. i am so sorry bout everything. i'm keep forcing you from late until now. i am so sorry bout that. and so sorry bout anything that happened, that make you hurt. and, a big thanks for you because u helped me a lot when i really need a favor. in anytime... thank you, kamu. i would miss you. i'll let you go. create your new story with new place with new life. if, we meet face to face, idk yet what should i do. i hope when i smile at you, u'll smile back at me.. like this, at least :) that's enough. i am moving on. i am moving forward with new life maybe. i do sincere towards you. i hope, u'll be much happier after all these. enjoy with all your friends and your life. i would miss you so much :'( like i said. this song is special for you and that is the last. take care of yourself. semoga kita akan berjumpa lagi dengan diri masing2 yang baru :'( i'll never forget the all memories. thank you for everything, Fireknuckle a.k.a Nova1 :'''( saya mendoakan kejayaan kamu sehingga kamu dapat LAE, sehingga kamu kahwin, sehingga kamu tua.. saya mendoakan kamu untuk dunia dan akhirat.. Assalamualaikum..

Friday, July 15, 2011

just let it be how it goes.

Not as a couple, not as a friends. but somethings special bout us. bygone let it be bygone. Just focus on the present for the future. But not too focus on the future until the present ignored, because the present will distract and everyhtings are ruining up. And then, the future is also will being nothing. Think, think and think about this. Ketentuan-Nya siapa yang tahu kan :) i'll try make it as a positive and everyone are satisfied. My guard is my guard and will be my immortal guard.. until the time is coming. I mean, until i get married :) hehe. I still love him as anyone. I don't care whoever we are. tak perlu nak jalinkan satu ikatan untuk sayang seseorang kan :) as long as i'm happy, as long as he's happy. That's enough. Enough for today. oh ya, nak balik kampung mak jap lagi. :))))