Tuesday, June 22, 2010

i don't know !


sob..sob..sob..  T_T can't say anything rite now ! empty mind ! buntu ! hanya mmpu berdoa kat Dia ! khamis nih aku kne gi subang coz kne medical check up untuk MAS . org MAS yg medical check up sndri . then, tadi aku da tanye haris coz dia da mdical check up tdi ! die kate MAS still tk bgitau result dye kuar bile ! so, aku tak confirm dterima tuk study dlm mAS ke tk ! spatutnye, nak tanak, aku kne gi UiTM dlu lah an ? lau tak, aku taknak gi Perlis ! memg aku n family plan camtuh ! dpt saving sket . tapi smua brubah bila MAS takkan kuarkan result awal! aku call mak aku ! abah akuh tgah saket n tak tahan kat umah tuh ! suara mak aku tuh da tntu a tgah susah aty n moody ! so, nnti2 je die bg jwapan ! if mak aku nak antakan aku boleh, tapi abah tgah saket sgt bt mase nih ! sape nk jage abah if mak n aku gi Perlis nnti ?!!dugaan nak bt pilihan sekarang nih ! nak pilih jalan selamat or jalan yg berisiko ??!! hah ?? aku tak tau lah !! btol2 tak tau ! aku try bt solat istigharah nnti, ikot gerak aty akulah . or ikut kputusan mak aku ! wait and see . nak nanges je keje tak mnjadi lah an ! so, try to be strong for my self ! aku nk strong mcm kak An ! nak strong mcm abg epul ! nak strong mcm KAK BIE ! sjak akhir2 nih aku try ignore  bantuan org laen ! mksud aku, tak mgharapkan perhatian org laen ! agak2 aku nk crite probs aku, aku crite ! if not, just duk diam n thinking by myself ! thinking how to solve my own probs !to kak bie, thanks a lot coz always help me n gve good advice to me ! thanks jgak coz be a good listener ! sgtsgt mghargai dri kak bie ! but, mkin lame msing2 mkin busy dgn rutin masing2 an ! it,s okayh ! takde mende yg aku nk ckp daa . ckup la kot stakat nih ! takde hati nk seronok2 sgt ! klau nk pon, maybe aku call kak bie jelah kot ! dgn ni, ucapan Sadaqallahul'azim , ttup cerita nih kat sini dlu ! next time i update u lagi yer sygs T_T..

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